it took half a year for a whole change to happen in my life. i let you in, hoping for the best. you made me feel like it was alright. the bottom line is don’t ever give up whatever morals, goals, and happiness that had been in your life since day 1. i let this one push me all over and now when i look at myself, i can barely define who i am anymore. it’s hard putting myself back together it’s difficult trying to get my sh*t back together! i promised myself so much and look at me now, FAIL! i lost so much great people in my life & it had to have been for all the wrong reasons! i never imagined my life to be like this ever! the thing is i don’t know why i keep holding on yo you! it’s hard living a life that is being runned by this dude who says he loves you! love? im not even sure if he knows the definition of love. i’m not even sure if i know the definition of love. why? well because this person that i believe to have so much love for doesn’t give me a single reason to believe that he loves me the same way that i love him! it’s never going to be the same! he will never know how to love the way that i love. and in the end maybe that’s a better thing, than a junk thing! because maybe in the future God has a better plan for the both of us and maybe God wants me to understand that the love that a real man can give me is the one that i do deserve. a real man won’t give me any reason to wait, to worry, to cry, to be hurt, to have my heart broken, to be lied to, cheated on, and disrespected! since day ONE i told this boy that i just want someone who’s down to be real with me and for me! no more holding back, being two completely different people, i want a man! one who is not ashamed of opening up, one who can DEFINITELY trust me, one who knows how to treat a woman! one who is not prideful and all about HIM! i want a man who can help me through it all! one who is willing to stand up to me and help me with my walk with the Lord! one who can care and love me for who i am! one who will NOT always bring me down and one who is always willing to show that he loves me instead of just saying it! one who will take the time out of his busy schedule to give me a simple phone call. one who will take time out of his busy life to do something little for me to make me smile. it’s not like im asking for the world, but a little more of your time will do! i want a man who is willing to be there for me, even when he’s tired! i want a man who will always entertain me one who i can love! one who i can be loved by and love him for who he is! i promise in return i will do all that i can and should do to keep him! i will always give him a reason to want to stay, not because he’s forced to! i want a man who is willing to support me through all that i do and my accomplishments! i want a real man who won’t put my dreams down and who won’t criticize my life and the things that i do! i want a man! a man a lot like the one that’s in my head! Lord please give me the strength i need Lord to belong to you and only you!!!!!!! i love you so much Lord an thank you so much for everything Lord!!!! you are the way the truth and the light!!!!! help me oh lord and hear my prayer! guide me protect me and help me to gain all that i had back! please Lord!!!! i love you!!!!
Lord,
let me walk this walk strong with you by my side! let me not go astray. help me please Lord to give me the strength i need to get through the day. help me to better my life with you and only you! For you are the way, the truth, and the light..help me to live my faith and not by sight!!! Thank you Lord for another beautiful day of life! thank you for all the many blessings you have blessed me with! i also thank you for the trials and tribulations we face in life, for it will only help us to get closer to you! i pray for a better day for my bubu as well! be with him! guide him protect him and give him the strength he needs to get closer to you! help us both to open out hearts up to you! help the both of us to walk strong with you First, before anything else! i love you Lord!!!
it’s been a hella long time since ive actually been on this thing!!! hello tumblr world :)
I don’t care if this was already posted on here and has a thousand notes.
I saw this on Facebook just now and my heart dropped. I had to take my eyes off of this image of a small, helpless baby that was in a car accident (is that the comments are saying).
I’m already praying for this child and his/her family.
I’m not asking you to reblog this if you care because I know all of you do.
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Relationships can never be perfect. You can never force your partner to be faithful in the same way that a normal relationship should be. What’s important is that at the end of the day, you find each other side by side and you’re happy knowing that he/she is yours. We need to enjoy the relationship while it’s there, for if you waste your time in doubts and insecurities, you’ll never appreciate how wonderful it is to fall in love.
i’m just gonna go with the flow. i’ll study as much as i can, but i won’t stress myself out. we’ll see where things take me :)
She says its because I’m her beautiful baby girl…..but mom it’s just weird
Like can’t I eat my cereal in peace..?
“If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face - forever.” - George Orwell
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